Sunday, September 18, 2011

Memories Treasured

I treasure a few things...family, health, and friends.  I treasure things that are important to me and provide for a better life for those around me. 

Not being a really sentimental person, I treasure very few materialist things.  If you have been to my home you know that I don't have a lot of stuff.  Not too many "trinkets" or shelves of stuff I just don't keep it around. 

While cleaning today I was reminded of some things that I treasure not because of their value but because they helped shaped who I am and appreciate what I have.  I smile every time I pass my spare room and see my Great Aunt Eileen's mystery jar, the photo of me and Grandpa Rudy dancing at my wedding, and a Raphael bracelet the great Canadian author Nora Keeling gave to me.

In every girl's life comes "that boy".  The boy that makes you feel like you are actually a girl, could possible have a boyfriend, and that you are not just the tough tomboy you have portrayed to the world for 16 years. "That boy" for me was a friend of my brothers who I met on my front lawn, March 1986.  I just thought he was the greatest thing ever.  After a fun March Break together the boy left London to go back to school in Lakefield, Ontario.  He wrote me a letter everyday and I cherished all his witty words and reflections on private school life. (I still have all the letters)  When he returned to London in May after his school year was complete, we resumed hanging out together.  One fun filled afternoon he took me to meet his mom, Nora Keeling who was eccentric, worldly, and so interesting to talk to.  She had lived in France, was a teacher, loved cats and smoked like a chimney. She was a published writer of short stories and articles and I ate up every word she spoke. 

At the end of our afternoon she handed me two gifts.  One was a signed manuscript of a short story she had written and the other was a small box with a bracelet in it.  She informed me that it was made by a Canadian artist in Toronto named Raphael and I wore it with pride.  It had the most interesting blue stone surrounded by a brass frame and clasp.  I had never been given any sort of gift such as this and long after "that boy" was out of my life I realized the value of the bracelet.  It represented that time in my life when I started to become confident, make better choices, and realize anything was possible for me. 

I left for Paris, France that summer and before I left I called Nora to share in my excitement.  She asked me to her house and gave me some books, letters and even some French Francs to take with me.  She asked that I visit some of her friends and drop letters off for her.  I remember how proud I was in Paris calling her friends and having tea with them to hear their stories of writing, Nora and life in France.  Nora died in 2008 and I never had the chance to reconnect with her and tell her that I now have a big collection of Raphael jewelry that I have enjoyed collecting since that lunch in 1986.  I wish I could share with her how much I appreciate that bracelet, how it made me feel, and what that thoughtful gesture did for this tomboy. 

I love photos.  I was a Creative Memory consultant for many years and enjoy making scrapbooks and preserving photos.  We have a lot of photos in our house and many scrapbooks of events, people and trips.  The one photo on my shelf that I adore is one of me and my grandpa dancing at my wedding in 1993.

The picture reminds me of where our family has come from.  It represents the guts it took my grandpa to get to Canada from Germany, the struggle he and my grandma had raising a family through the depression, and the years of joy they provided to all their grandchildren at their amazing property in Whitby, Ontario. 

He was so handsome that day in his grey suit and I giggle knowing that my grandma Hetty would have made him make sure his tie was straight and hankie was folded just right.  I am so happy that I have a video from our wedding so that I can hear all my grandparent's voices long after they have passed on and re watch me and my grandpa dancing a waltz.


My last treasure is a bit of a mystery.  It sat on a kitchen shelf in Tilden Lake, Ontario for many years at my Aunt Eileen's cabin.  My Aunt Eileen was my Grandpa Elliot's sister and to me, lived a fascinating life.  She worked for CP rail and had this property north of North Bay, Ontario where she built a humble cabin.  Four walls, a roof, and it was the greatest place on earth.  It did not have a road to it so you had to boat into the property.  You can imagine as the kid how cool that was.  We travelled to the cottage each summer and spent many long weekends there with my Aunt and her friends.  Eventually, my mom and her sisters got ownership of the cottage and built a road. 

The cottage had 2 bedrooms, a washroom (no running water), a kitchen (with running water that you had to hook up each year) and a family room.  No phone, 1 channel on the TV and the main mode of communication was the radio.  It is the place where my cousins and I all learned to play Euchre, Scrabble, cribbage and do crossword puzzles.  It was the place where you went annually with your friends to chill out, where I got engaged, knee boarded for the first time and saw my first bear. 

The place was full of souvenirs from my aunt's travels and work adventures.  It was adorned with wool blankets, CP train lights, a hat from Greece and on one shelf in the kitchen was this brown jar with the words PARIS FRANCE on it.  You would have no idea what it was until you touched it as it just looked like a souvenir.  Once you popped the top up, you noticed several small pipes to hold something.  Every time I arrived at the cottage, I would take the jar off the shelf and pull the top up and down to see if it still worked and I always hoped to find something in it, I never did.  I often fantasized over it's origin.  Who gave it to my aunt?  Did she travel to Paris and bring it back?  Was it for cigarettes? 

When my family eventually had to sell the cabin (It needed to be rebuilt and get a septic system) my mom asked if there was anything I wish to have and I told her about the brown jar.  She wasn't even sure she knew what I was talking about but when they returned from clearing the cottage out, she had it for me wrapped in paper towel and ready to resume it's mysterious life at my house.

I would not run back into a burning house to retrieve these items because I am already grateful for their memories that I treasure. 

What do you treasure?

Tuesday, September 13, 2011

Oh Happy Day

I am not going to lie but it has been hard to be happy recently.  I look happy, I act happy, I tell people I am happy but really I am not happy...until today that is.  Why you ask?  Because I got to teach today.

A year ago I was asked to present to a group of coordinators/coaches/TOSAs for our school board and I was honoured to do it.  When I got my new job in January I was approached again by this group to return and do a part 2.  Today was that day.  I got to facilitate some of our board's most creative, funny, hard working and dynamic literacy, numeracy and ESL teacher leaders.  We worked on problem solving protocols, conflict resolution, success criteria for successful coaching and knowing our knowledge, skills and attitudes of situational leadership.  By the end of our full day everyone's brains were fried (I was thrilled as Harry Wong would be so proud) as I skipped all the way to my car full of energy while I knew "my students" were pooped.

I was teaching again.  I was leading learning again.  I was able to provide success for students again.  What a rush that I have not had in a long time.  Thank you teacher leaders for the opportunity to share in your success today and I know that I learned more from you and "took" away more from you than you will ever know.  My light has been turned back on.

But...my teaching day did not stop there.

I was asked for the 3rd time to come and speak at the North London New Balance store by my running friends Mark and Tracy (they were my running coaches for my first 1/2 marathon).  They have running groups on Tuesday night and asked me to come and share my running / health stories with their group. 

Tonight was a big group of "learn to run" runners all the way to a 1/2 marathon group.  So many smiling, friendly faces and a ton of people I knew included a wonderful teacher friend Vicky, former student's dad, and an insurance mate Mike.  I got to talk and reflect on my health situation and running accomplishments.  After I shared my running journey I gave them a top 12 list.

Catherine's Top 12 list to help with your running journey

1. Get a subscription to a running magazine

2. Join http://www.dailymile.com/. It helps track your totals, progress and pace improvements

3. Practice your finish line photo at the end of every run - arms straight and fingers spread and hold.  Don't look at your watch. 
4. Acknowledge other runners when you pass with a hello
5. Practice the 3 Cs ; commit communicate create

6. Use social media; Twitter and/or Facebook to connect with other runners

7. Sign up for future races

8. Start a champions wall with all your bibs and medals on it.

9. Read Born to Run by Christopher McDougall http://www.chrismcdougall.com/blog/

10. Put a schedule, race flyer, photo on the fridge for you and others to see

11. Drink chocolate milk.  Just like the commercial years ago with the boy who lost the hockey game, it makes everything better

12. Remember there is only 1st and 2nd place in every race. The winner, and everyone else, so you always get at a silver medal

Thanks everyone for helping me find my happy place today.

Sunday, September 11, 2011

Running has made me a math maniac

I have some real signature flaws; driving, sleeping (never never never do I sleep ((except in a movie theatre)), getting birthday cards out to people on time (but I am getting better), forgetting to change out of my PJs on the weekends, swearing, and anything related to....math.

I remember failing grade 7 and 8 math at Northridge PS and not really caring.  I had tough teachers and never made a connection and therefore didn't "get math" till Mrs. Cartwright in grade 11 at Lucas SS who really seemed to care if I finally "got it".  But, my formative math skills such as being able to make calculations fast in my head suck and it drives my math wizard of a husband nuts.

So, this past weekend I drove him up the wall as I decided to spend some time analysing last year's marathon stats and to do some 2011 marathon calculations. I spent over 2 hours looking at my time stats from last year and punching number after number into my calculator all with the same answer - I AM A SLOW RUNNER!

Here are my stats and break down from last year.
5k -      00:39:12  - 39 minutes
10k -    01:20:34  - 41 minutes
15k -    02:02:45 - 42 minutes
20k -    02:47:22 - 45 minutes
Half -    02:57:41
25k -    03:35:38 - 48 minutes
30k -    04:24:30 - 49 minutes
35k -    05:13:54 - 49 minutes
40k -    06:07:59 - 54 minutes
Finish - 06:28:41 - 21 minutes

I didn't even have a chance. I got slower and slower with every 5km while it got hotter and hotter out.  I also got so disappointed at the 10km and 1/2 splits because I knew I was not going to break 6 hours.  Imagine knowing you are not going to make your goal within the first hour of the race and then "carrying it" the rest of the way.  What a load!

My overall pace was 9:12/km.  Are you kidding me, that is embarrassing even being near the 9 minute per km zone. 

After I calculated all my splits for each of the 5km chunks I spent an hour trying to figure out where I can make up time from last year.  I was counting and talking to myself and punching more numbers.  My husband was in the dinning room working and was trying to listen to my go over and over again my thoughts, calculations and predictions.  

For the 100th time I was sharing all the excuses about why I was so slow last year and how I am going to be better this year.  All of sudden he appeared in the family room to share his thoughts about why I took so long to finish in 2010...his conclusion..."because you ran too slowly".

Really, that is all?  In your humble opinion I just need to run faster??!!

Bite me!

I am going to focus on improving my 5km times and see if that helps with my overall times.

Oh, and use a calculator more often.